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All my friends seem to be going through some kind of depressive state which has resulted in my bedroom wall having a big hole from someone. I’m feeling as if I’ve gone through this like two years early which is kind of comforting but at the same time a gift seems everyone feels as if they can relate to my life experiences, also making me feel as if maybe I’m not as fucked up as I was.

I think this is the first time I’ve stuck to working out at the gym and sticking with the diet/not giving up when you decide to binge eat for a night… It’s been 5 weeks so far, only another year to go and I should be a little happier with my body…

On another note I got a job in a hotel kitchen preparing food for about 200 guests which is quite fun/stressful - gives me something extra to do rather than mindless walks by myself/torturing my body at gym…

Should probably sleep soon… 

It’s 2am and just got back from a walk along the beach which was kinda refreshing, despite the rain n’ all but now I’m not tired ;/ 

Just finished reading the Divinci Code after making a point of not watching the movie until I finished it… Watched the movie straight after and was massively disappointed :( 

Think I’ve fell in love with Dan Brown’s writing though, gonna start his ‘The lost Symbol’ book tomorrow… 

Feel a bit sad that I want to own my own cryptex to store some worldly possessions in that’ll change the thinking of mankind forever although I have a feeling it’s a little out of my reach for now…

Another world

Just took a step back in time in my loft.

I sat up there for about two hours looking through old photo’s, flicking through crisp articles, inhaling the deep air and reliving old memories.